The Turning Tide
Time does not heal all wounds, my loss is still as fresh in my mind as the day it happened. I have began to put one foot in front of the other, and I am attempting to move ahead. It has been a long time since my last post, and quite a bit has happened in this time. I have returned to counseling, complete with meds. At times it seems to be working, other times forget it. Last Thursday, I sat in the park after class (more about class in a moment) texting my wife. I told her that I couldn’t motivate myself to go to work and that I felt like just sitting in the park all day. After a while I was convinced that I could not afford to miss work, or should I say afford to miss pay. The rest of day really sucked canal water, the word busy wouldn’t have even began to describe the day. Enough about that wonderful day.
Next I have returned to college. Faced with the prospect of spending the rest of my working days on a forklift, working for squat and putting up with impossible people (that is really being nice). The way I saw it I had three possible choices. One, shut up grit my teeth and bare it. Two, go off the deep end. Three, change careers. After much thought, I opted for number 3. I have started taking classes at a local college for surgical technology. A really bold move for me I must say. It is tough going to school full-time and working full-time, but at least I have motivation to go to work now.
More of my friends are moving away, either physically or by failing to stay in contact. My attempts to make new friends hasn’t been completely successful. Everyone here in college seems to be in the same boat as I am. Juggling work, family and school leaves little time for social interaction. How I long to just sit down and talk a few hours a week with someone who will listen without judging me first. Again, enough about that, lest I depress myself. I am sure it will all turn out for the best, if I don’t make friends here in college, I will when I begin to work in my new career.
The time may be turning, I will keep paddling and bailing when necessary.
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